It's that time again. A new post of weights and measures. One I always begin with a bit of trepidation. I am so very pleased with the results and totally amazed in some areas.
I have lost a total of 29 pounds and 28 1/4 inches since this journey began! I have lost 8 inches alone from my waist!! Eight inches!! Eight inches!! I wonder how much that lessens my risk of a heart attack?
With that amount of weight and inch loss I am now able to fit into my very favorite fancy coat! The weather has obliged here perfectly with single digit temps in the mornings many days this week. There is something about that coat that makes me feel special (and warm). I love wearing it. However, I am glad to be putting it away for a week. I leave this morning for my cruise. Can my day get any better? Oh wait! Yes, it can! That cruise is going to be with my very best friend in the whole wide world!!
I have a plan in place on how to handle the cruise. I am bringing protein shakes and bars with me as well as some of my new favorite snacks, Brown Rice and Red Bean Triscuits. Yum! We are also planning on being active on this cruise, checking out fitness classes and walking. Of course, plenty of relaxation will be thrown into the mix. There is such a variety of food on cruise ships that I am sure I won't have a problem finding something to eat. I have found that the food that sits the very best on my stomach is fish. I have never been a fish fan, but that is quickly changing.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Fear
Today I am fighting fear.
Fear that the weight won't come off. I am stuck and the scale doesn't seem to be moving. The progress seems to be slow. I went to a support group meeting last week. Someone there who had surgery after me has already lost 50 pounds! While I think that is wonderful, it certainly isn't the case for me.
Fear that I will blow this. My hunger is beginning to return and I want to eat more often. I am only supposed to be eating three meals a day with MAYBE one snack. I am afraid my old habits of wanting to graze all the time is returning.
Fear that I will make the wrong choices with the food I am eating. Whether that food will stay down or is just a plain wrong choice.
Fear of how I am going to do on the cruise I am going on next week with my best friend. (Maybe it will be a good thing to not have my scale with me at all.)
Fear is not a good thing. I am putting things in place to combat this fear. I signed up for Fitness Pal this morning on my Android. That way I can track what I am eating. If things continue to stagnate I will take it to my doctor's office and have a chat.
The cruise will be what it is. No scale, like I said, can be a good thing. I will be more active with excursions than just my regular day to day walking. I will have my best friend for support. She is absolutely wonderful in that department. She will also tell me like it is if I need to have a kick in the pants. No letting it off easy for this girl.
Of course, the first thing I should do is turn to God. Pray and be still in His presence. He will give me what I need as well. So why is this the last thing I am writing when it should have been the first? When will I ever learn.
Fear that the weight won't come off. I am stuck and the scale doesn't seem to be moving. The progress seems to be slow. I went to a support group meeting last week. Someone there who had surgery after me has already lost 50 pounds! While I think that is wonderful, it certainly isn't the case for me.
Fear that I will blow this. My hunger is beginning to return and I want to eat more often. I am only supposed to be eating three meals a day with MAYBE one snack. I am afraid my old habits of wanting to graze all the time is returning.
Fear that I will make the wrong choices with the food I am eating. Whether that food will stay down or is just a plain wrong choice.
Fear of how I am going to do on the cruise I am going on next week with my best friend. (Maybe it will be a good thing to not have my scale with me at all.)
Fear is not a good thing. I am putting things in place to combat this fear. I signed up for Fitness Pal this morning on my Android. That way I can track what I am eating. If things continue to stagnate I will take it to my doctor's office and have a chat.
The cruise will be what it is. No scale, like I said, can be a good thing. I will be more active with excursions than just my regular day to day walking. I will have my best friend for support. She is absolutely wonderful in that department. She will also tell me like it is if I need to have a kick in the pants. No letting it off easy for this girl.
Of course, the first thing I should do is turn to God. Pray and be still in His presence. He will give me what I need as well. So why is this the last thing I am writing when it should have been the first? When will I ever learn.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Changes
I went back to work last Monday. Even though I have had tiring days I seem to have so much more energy than I did before the surgery. I no longer have the need to come home and nap every afternoon. That doesn't mean that I don't veg out, but I am not sleeping my life away.
I am going through clothes to find things that fit right now. It certainly helps to have years worth of clothes that I grew out of and couldn't bear to give away. However, my family room looks like a disaster area. I have piles of this size and that size sitting around. One thing I am not keeping is clothes that I have grown out of. Those clothes are going into a special box to be given away.
I am now eating solid foods again. It is nice to have a greater variety to choose from. I just no longer find joy in eating like I used to. It seems to be somewhat of a chore. Yes, I did just say that. And I can't believe it was me who said it. Before I never understood those people that ate to live. Now I have an inkling of what that is like. I really hope this feeling never goes away. I would much rather force myself to eat than force myself to stop. I feel I would just rather drink. Water that is, no alcohol for me. I have read that people who have had gastric by-pass can become addicted to alcohol very easily, even if they never had a problem with it before. I have no desire to trade one addiction for another.
Down twenty-five pounds and counting. Current measures are updated. I will put up the new weight tomorrow. Got to give it every day that I can. I am still working on looking in the mirror and being okay with what I am and what I am becoming. It can be so hard to not look at how far I still have to go. Self image can be a tough thing.
I am going through clothes to find things that fit right now. It certainly helps to have years worth of clothes that I grew out of and couldn't bear to give away. However, my family room looks like a disaster area. I have piles of this size and that size sitting around. One thing I am not keeping is clothes that I have grown out of. Those clothes are going into a special box to be given away.
I am now eating solid foods again. It is nice to have a greater variety to choose from. I just no longer find joy in eating like I used to. It seems to be somewhat of a chore. Yes, I did just say that. And I can't believe it was me who said it. Before I never understood those people that ate to live. Now I have an inkling of what that is like. I really hope this feeling never goes away. I would much rather force myself to eat than force myself to stop. I feel I would just rather drink. Water that is, no alcohol for me. I have read that people who have had gastric by-pass can become addicted to alcohol very easily, even if they never had a problem with it before. I have no desire to trade one addiction for another.
Down twenty-five pounds and counting. Current measures are updated. I will put up the new weight tomorrow. Got to give it every day that I can. I am still working on looking in the mirror and being okay with what I am and what I am becoming. It can be so hard to not look at how far I still have to go. Self image can be a tough thing.
Monday, March 4, 2013
Month One
One month down! It is hard to believe it has been one month since my surgery. One month since I started this journey to a slimmer, healthier me!
What has happened in the last month?
Food no longer rules my life. Which is funny because I have to actually think more about what food is going into my mouth and down into my pouch. Before I would eat whatever sounded good. That was often processed food and lots of it. Now, protein comes first and then fruits and vegetables. Often, my meals get shared with my dog because I can't eat it all. Guess what? She is losing weight too.
I have lost 22 pounds! And inches. The days when I don't lose can be disheartening, but I am better able to look at the big picture without panicking too bad and going off program.
I am able to walk by a mirror without looking to see how big my belly is or checking out my double chin.
I take less medication and more supplements. Vitamins are my friend. I am still working on making iron my friend. I would like to take it without it upsetting my stomach.
My insides still hurt from the surgery even a month out. (However, tonight they itch! Which shows that is healing as well).
I am glad I took the extra week off of work and didn't push myself. God really does know what he is doing! Imagine that!
I signed up for my first ever sporting event! I am going to participate in a 5K obstacle course/mud run in August. I would love to have others join me to support Breast Cancer.
I went from shopping in the Plus Size Clothing area to the regular size clothing area. However, I am still afraid to try on clothes for fear they won't fit.
I progressed from clear liquids to liquids to pureed foods back to whole foods again.
I learned that I can take 20-30 minutes to eat a meal, even if it is only 1/2 cup of food. I can focus on other things rather than inhalation of sustenance.
I no longer want to be a Contestant on the Biggest Loser. Okay, I never really wanted to be a contestant, but I could have qualified! Now I can watch it and compare my weight loss to theirs.
I am looking forward to exercising again. I am having a hard time with the cold weather because I want to get outside and walk.
It is amazing what a difference a month can make!
What has happened in the last month?
Food no longer rules my life. Which is funny because I have to actually think more about what food is going into my mouth and down into my pouch. Before I would eat whatever sounded good. That was often processed food and lots of it. Now, protein comes first and then fruits and vegetables. Often, my meals get shared with my dog because I can't eat it all. Guess what? She is losing weight too.
I have lost 22 pounds! And inches. The days when I don't lose can be disheartening, but I am better able to look at the big picture without panicking too bad and going off program.
I am able to walk by a mirror without looking to see how big my belly is or checking out my double chin.
I take less medication and more supplements. Vitamins are my friend. I am still working on making iron my friend. I would like to take it without it upsetting my stomach.
My insides still hurt from the surgery even a month out. (However, tonight they itch! Which shows that is healing as well).
I am glad I took the extra week off of work and didn't push myself. God really does know what he is doing! Imagine that!
I signed up for my first ever sporting event! I am going to participate in a 5K obstacle course/mud run in August. I would love to have others join me to support Breast Cancer.
I went from shopping in the Plus Size Clothing area to the regular size clothing area. However, I am still afraid to try on clothes for fear they won't fit.
I progressed from clear liquids to liquids to pureed foods back to whole foods again.
I learned that I can take 20-30 minutes to eat a meal, even if it is only 1/2 cup of food. I can focus on other things rather than inhalation of sustenance.
I no longer want to be a Contestant on the Biggest Loser. Okay, I never really wanted to be a contestant, but I could have qualified! Now I can watch it and compare my weight loss to theirs.
I am looking forward to exercising again. I am having a hard time with the cold weather because I want to get outside and walk.
It is amazing what a difference a month can make!
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Weights and Measures
Weights and Measures have not changed much in the last ten days. Down 20 pounds total so no complaints overall, but one would think that with the minimal amount of food going down that it would be much faster. Patience!!! Patience!!! Patience!!!
On the other hand I am feeling stronger everyday. A good thing since I am going back to work tomorrow. We will see how it goes. It is a good thing that my first day back will be a quiet one.
I also start full foods tomorrow. The pureed stuff didn't bother me, but this is an exciting phase to be entering into!
On the other hand I am feeling stronger everyday. A good thing since I am going back to work tomorrow. We will see how it goes. It is a good thing that my first day back will be a quiet one.
I also start full foods tomorrow. The pureed stuff didn't bother me, but this is an exciting phase to be entering into!
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